Full Moon & Mercury Retrograde Edition: Peeling Back The Layers & Looking Back to Leap Forward
The human race is a complex and a mutlifaceted form of energy, of matter. There are many parts that makes us the same as the person next to us, but there are also many parts that makes us different, makes us unique, makes us an individual. But why is there an underlying obsession of needing others to be so similar and familiar to us, in order for us to feel like we belong, to feel accepted, to feel comfortable. That obsession and that push to make people be more like us. That need to be more agreeable. That need and that desire to feel comfortable will turn to be your own mental prison that is formed within your mind and within your physical realm. Because you will constantly chase the thing, the person, the environment that makes you feel comfortable. Keep in mind, comfort is not a bad thing, it is only something that works against us when we are seeking comfort, to avoid the problems of self and taking that initiative to face what’s really beneath the surface. And this in turn will keep yourself feeling small, when we don’t have that outlet or that room to expand, to explore, to grow. We create our own suffering. And suffering of any form is the beginning of any dis-ease. The prolonging of dis-ease will lead to external manifestations that may take in many forms.
And when we peel back the layers, the layers of you. There is more beneath the surface. There is more beyond what we are seeing. So why the need to categorize the few things that we see that makes up a person? Why can’t these few things just be those things and just exist, why shall we make up the story for a person, concluding on things we know nothing about. There is only a small percentage of the brain that the human race use on a daily basis. And the rest of it, our brains fill in the blanks with junk information. That is the part where we, as humans fall short. The need to understand what we don’t understand. We overlook so much because either our brains don’t have the capacity or us humans are short on time. Doing what we do best, rushing the process. So the brain does its thing, sometimes without our knowledge and our conscious effort until we really sit with ourselves and take the time for self-reflection.
Many of us go through life and experience life without revealing all of our layers, all of our parts that makes us who we are. Some may share these layers of themselves to one, some to a few, and some to no one their entire existence. Then there are the rare that can show all parts when necessary. There is no wrong or right way to live your life, it is all just choice and all valid choices base upon one’s preference. No way of life should form judgements. But that is a bad habit of us humans, to form judgements without proper inquiry.
So before we make a judgement call to say someone or something is good or bad, evil or righteous is not as plain or simple as that may seem. We may say those things or refer people, places, or things in such terms because again our brain is trying to compress and compact information as much as we can, to get the important information across. From my understanding, people are not inherently born good or bad, righteous or evil. We all were once pure of form, pure in energy when we were born. It is of the the choices we make becomes of us. So if we are not proud of our choices and the choices we make, and if we cannot overcome our challenges and/or consequences, this may lead for one to feel they are a bad person, and in turn become a bad person because their belief deemed themselves unworthy of being good because they’ve made bad judgements and poor decisions that they have yet to rectify within themselves. So they carry it with them, in turn may use it as a weapon against another.
When we forget about good versus evil and we peel back the layers, what we will find in its core, is our operating system. What is running the show to cause such behaviors or actions? We will find, it is either that we are operating in a place of love or we are operating in a place of fear. Once we define that, it will be shown how this mode of operating is expressed through our layers and through our layers of self. That is in turn outwardly expressed through our behaviors, actions, and choices. Think of a toddler going through a temper tantrum and throwing things in the room. That toddler is operating in fear, expressing their emotions out of fear, because they feel that their sense of security and safety is jeopardize for not getting their needs met or they feel that they are not being heard.
The general world operate mostly on the surface layer of self and may feel comfortable showing the first few layers of themselves that they feel would be socially acceptable. So us humans will continue to only show and operate in certain layers of self that we deem as acceptable to the general world and the general public. So what is the issue in operating in the world this way, if any?
When we only show up and operate in only small parts of ourselves and abandon the other layers and the other parts of self as if they are non-existence. This is when we run into experiences where we are in unfulfilling careers, we are in relationships that are unfulfilling or where we still feel alone in a relationship. Because none of those things are fulfilling us in our whole, in our entirety. How could we expect that when we are not meeting it with our whole authentic self to begin with. How could we expect that externally, when we are not meeting those requirements ourselves, internally. Instead we are blocking it, perhaps suppressing it acting as our own ignorance.
Because we are only working and operating in one aspect or one layer of self while hiding our other layers, a relationship may not be as fulfilling because the other layers are tucked away to appease the status quo. Perhaps the relationship wasn’t always unfulfilling, it only started to feel unfulfilling because you have discovered yourself more deeply and uncovered more layers to yourself and may have started to openly accept these parts of self, where as your counterpart may have not. In turn, makes you wonder why the relationship is not as it once was, or why your career is not as fulfilling anymore. The new discovery on yourself, the new growth, and the new layers of yourself you are getting to know are now no longer working with what is current. What is transpiring in your current reality.
And in these pivotal moments, in these shifts we must choose the next path. To remain or to rebirth. To burn or to build. And in what ways to do so? How will that be expressed through the external?Many choices can be chosen. Let me explain. To choose to remain, by that I mean to remain pretending, to keep the status quo, to appease another, to people please your circumstances. To choose rebirth, by that I mean embrace the new, embrace the profound change you are discovering, regardless if external circumstances will rejoice in that. There is also another choice, to remain and to rebirth. By this I mean to choose to remain where you are and also transforming those remains. Meaning remaining within the career but bringing forth the change and the transformation somehow. Transformation can be seen as a promotion, a different position, or a different way of doing things. Similar to the relationship, remaining but choosing to work through it with your counterpart and embrace the changes and meeting each other where you are now, as long as the other party is willing and choosing to understand the change in you.
There isn’t necessarily a right or wrong choice, unless you are outright rejecting what your heart or your intuition is leading. It is only in the perceptions of it and how you choose to look at these choices. Because whether you make the wrong or right choice, there is always something to gain from it. Only you can understand and know the best path forward. You will know the proper choice, when that path is seen and opened up to you without forcefulness. Meaning that the proper path in choice will present itself clearly, but it is only your will that can choose to take up on it or reject it completely. How do we meet the path opened up before us? Love or fear. Openness or rigidity.
Sometimes the choices that we want to make, may not be the most feasible. And it will show us either of two things: there are still some kinks that needs to be worked through, or it is simply not possible to go through in this direction. In the relationship example, you want to choose to remain, but your counterpart is not understanding the change in you and may act dismissively and they are not on board because there is no longer that alignment present. Discernment is key in decision making. Sometimes all you need is more time and information for integration and other times there is no determining factor found to continue to move ahead, because what once was a bond no longer there. The path forward may be shown in other ways, perhaps in other choices you didn’t want to make in the first place. But you will know, what is right for you. Choose the change or reject it, the choice is ultimately yours. No matter how much you think you have no choice, there will always be a choice and the series of consequences following from that choice that you are willing to undergo. You must choose what is the worthy path.
The most important thing to remember is that the people who support you for you, will never fear the change in you, will allow you to go through that change and meet you on the other side of it. Although it may seem scary you will come out better for it. Because then you are operating in the most truest form of you, yet. Just for a moment, allow us to be real. The amount of people that will support you for you will become a small number than you hoped, but it’s a much better path ahead. A much more peaceful path, a much more grounded path forward, a much more aligned path, that is better fitting for you.
Look back to see how far you’ve come and continue to leap forward.
MAXIMA VEGA 