love – MAXIMA VEGA

From the World That Never Speaks

To feel…it might just cost you

The world as we know it is so vast, so huge, endless even to say. So many cultures, so many ways of being, amidst all that difference we see. The silent whispers of the same illness. Masking as something else, masking as something they are not. At least that’s what I’ve observed. You tell me differently. You tell me if I’m not seeing clearly, if I’m imagining it. But as growth manifests, we only see clearer by the day. But to be the observer of the world, a world that constantly spins. At least that’s what they say, right? A world that spins. Wow. Of course it does. I believe you so that I am not shamed or ever questioned. Duly noted.

The hustle and bustle of life. The endless lists of preoccupation. The loud chatter that surrounds us. But nobody speaks. Nobody truly speaks. When was the last time you heard someone say something real? The chatter fades into distant memory because of the empty words, the filler words that take up most conversations. Most people have made up their mind about you before uttering a word anyway, so who should care? Sizing you up with everything that is meaningless.

The unwelcoming.

I don’t need your validation. Truth be told, I never needed it. You only thought I did to play your hand as I watched to see what you make of it. I only wanted my sanity back. My peace back, at least that was mine. I only need to see who you chose to be. I only need to see what you secretly think of me to make the ultimate executive decision without speaking before you.

To speak honestly, to speak openly, will only be respected by the rare few, so why bother? To waste my breath when nobody would catch or cater the words that come out of my mouth. They can never understand the breath of fire. Before speaking anything truthful, there is an automatic smackdown. Their own aim is to twist, mistake, and weaponize words as their personal ammo. A personal arsenal when need be. An identifying target for malfunction, for dysfunction. What makes you think I want a part in that?

Assumptions.

Do you aim to be brutally honest or brutally cruel? I can’t tell. Laser-sharp is my guess. Winning at all costs must be your life goal. Priorities misaligned completely. The point of understanding was never available to begin with. Therefore, no prior dance is required. Dance class dismissed.

Take a bow.

But I was the only one left on the battlefield to be named cruel. Cruel to your advantage. Cruel intentions. The perfectly curated villain in the story. Challenge accepted. If being the villain gives me back my sanity, gladly. If being the villain provides me back my peace, gladly. Suffering fools gladly is not on the itinerary for today, never was. That was the mistake. Even when you thought I was the easiest target.

What a glorious accomplishment to feel the least. A glorified temporary moment that couldn’t last any shorter. A glorious personification of the winning victor. The cost of feeling. The cost of feeling too much should not exist. Shutting it down at all costs to preserve what is already unnatural to begin with.

To feel nothing.

To think we are shutting down the whole other side of the human experience is baffling. It isn’t whole. It isn’t complete. I never saw it as tough, as strong, as admirable. Never something I could fully participate in. Because my greatest work is when I feel it all in full, wholeheartedly. Spitting out something superbly natural for a world to see.

Because to feel it might just cost you, but to me, to feel might just be my ultimate liberation.

Is it terrifying to feel, or is it terrifying to feel nothing at all?

To each their own.

One day you’ll find the pain was the ultimate roadmap to your destined path.

I hope you can take the boomerang on the chin as I did.

I held the pain like my friend, while you stand in front of the pain like your enemy.

Threading energy, karma, and universal mind to seal your fate.

Ignorance is bliss to the untrained eye.

Ignorance is death to the intelligent.

I recognize and can back track my footsteps, can you?

Thank you for understanding the unspoken world.

The unseen world.

You are completely needed.

Do as thou wilt.

Poetic Justice.

MY MISSION IS MINE.

The Lurking Enemy of Envy

The battle of Humanity and the Shadow Self…

What has become of us, of humanity? After all, we are the product of our environment. Have we not seen the evolution of how we relate to one another on a global, mass collective scale? The constant habit of compare and contrast is at an all-time high, while some of us have been the ultimate targets of such behaviors rooted in envy, evil, and the wickedness of one’s soul, perpetrated against other human beings.

How come—how so—in the past 10 years, in the past 20 years, the spirit of envy, the spirit of jealousy lives at an all-time high, rooted within people’s shadows? That they are now fond of, that it may even be rooted within their genetic makeup.

When shall we wake up? When shall we see with our real eyes the war that is being waged? As above, so below. This spirit has gone rampant because of the conditions of our environment. The subtleties and subconscious games people play, because that is what they want from us—to become distracted and vain from what is of real value here.

Envy becomes the new stimulus.

Are you understanding the game yet? The game only lives on when we become willing participants in the game itself. When we are no longer participating players, the game shuts down on its own. The game is bigger than us and our day-to-day lives.

You’re in the ring, constantly fighting the shadow boxes of so-called illusions, yet you think you can win this game. The game is unwinnable. Nobody wants to forfeit, but in reality, there’s nothing to gain—nothing worth winning. The game is rigged before you even entered the ring. Congratulations, you’ve figured it out. Better to be late to the party than not show up at all.

The quickest way out of the game is by removing yourself once awareness has struck. It’s better to befriend and understand the shadow self than to fight it. To fight it will only leave you tired and lost in the end—stuck in a game you don’t know how to win. Lost and confused. In a daze of your own making.

Because winning lies in choosing yourself every fucking time. That is the worthiest of all wins.

And when I say choosing yourself, it is not from a selfish frame—but rather from a moral compass you follow from within. What you know to be the righteous act in any given situation.

Welcome to the awakening.

Are you ready for the real fight at hand?

The Tower of Power

In the end, there is always a start to something new.

In times when things seem destructive, the life we once saw surrounding us is all crumbling down, and the ship we were once aboard heads toward wreckage. It is easy to be led toward a destructive mindset when all we can see is destruction ahead. Sometimes it feels like there were no signs to warn us of what’s to come. You had found your footing; you had found YOU, yourself again. Here comes a wave when your back is turned. Something unexpected, something you couldn’t predict this time around. Have you been the one who usually can predict these sorts of things? The tower of power is right in front of you, to be faced head-on. In this moment, you find yourself going back and forth with the waves of emotion. The emotions of panic and stress want to pull you in, but the calmness and peace in your heart and soul is calling you to feel, to embrace. Because deep down inside of you, you know that this destruction is good, this change is necessary. This ending is necessary. For you to evolve, to transform, to reassess what is needed in your next chapter, and determine where you are going from here on out.

In this moment, I choose something different. In this moment, I choose to act and think differently. To behave differently, and to take a different kind of action than I’m used to. In my mind at this time, I understand the change in me, the evolution of me. I choose to acknowledge within myself the necessity of this destruction in my outer world because I have changed. My internal processes have changed. That part of me is no longer. Therefore, this collapse is necessary. That part within me has died, and I have surrendered. This is a signal of my growth and how far I have come within days, months, and years of time. Acknowledging that what used to work for me before, no longer does. What used to light my fire before, no longer gives me warmth. What used to make me happy, now burdens me. What used to give me stability and security now brings instability, insecurity, and anxiety. What used to give me strength has forsaken me.

I have chosen the path of change. I have chosen continued growth. I have chosen to ascend. Instead of looking back and asking, “Why me? How come? Why now?” Instead of trying to fix and rebuild when the cracks have already been shown, instead of focusing my energy on rebuilding what is no longer working, what’s no longer stable ground, I choose to focus my energy on what’s new to come. I choose to use my energy to embrace what’s next and what I can create in the now. I choose to focus on the room and the space it has created to build something brand new. I envision what is next and what I want to see moving forward. Filling myself with excitement about the possibilities the empty spaces may hold and fill, instead of ruminating on the fear of what may never come to replace those empty spaces. No matter how scary the unknown may seem, instead of choosing to shut down and close off my energy. I choose to expand into the horizon and open up to the doors that are opening for me. The path I cannot see just yet with the naked eye, but I can feel. I choose to embrace all the possibilities that may come, no matter how out of this world they may be and no matter how impossible they may seem.

In this moment, I have learned to make the choice to lean into the unknown. And this unknown is a scary thing. Hold on tight and I will see you on the other side of greatness. Do not fear you won’t be saved because, in truth, you were already saved. The tower of power has now released you from what binds you. Remove and release the energy that no longer serves you to free yourself once more. The taste of newfound freedom is now yours for the taking. The tower of power is newfound victory, newfound glory. Embrace the newness awaiting to come.

Welcome to your transformation.